Thursday, December 30, 2010

God and Science

last night i had a great conversation on the phone with a special friend. we were opening gateways of communication. at some point i even recorded some parts of the conversation that way i may reference it in the future. when the last sweet thing was said, i went to bed.
My dream.
Dreams for me never begin, but mine usually do end or continue the next day. Scene - in the future, some sort of desert. But the desert was lived in. There was some sort of store and trash in some areas. I saw mobile homes and cars. It was sweaty hot.
a car stopped in front of me. I got in thinking it was the right car. I went on a journey of sin and confusion. Not finding my way correct way. I saw my dad and he was giving me advise, but I didn't want to listen. I got lost in the store and had to find my way out. When I finally did get out of the store, I still had a pulling feeling to go back in. I fought the feeling and stopped outside the store, in the desert, in the heat, and a car was passing by then stopped infront of me. There was a woman in the back seat. She told me that she would take me where I needed to go. I got in, and a long trip later we ended up infront of a broken down house. There was a blind woman. She was old with raggy clothes on. She was looking for something. Then she turned to me and asked if I believe in God. I told her "Yes, I think I do" but I really wasn't confident in my answer. I looked down towards the floor, and then to the door. I wanted to leave. She then tried to tell me "You believe in God and Science, but you should put all your faith in God". She then turned to the woman that was in the car with me, and told her "You don't belong here, you first took her the wrong way. That's not...". The blind woman looked back without finishing her sentince and told me that it is okay that I was on the wrong path, I can just start putting my faith in God from this moment on, and I will be forgiven. I then remembered my wrong path looked like the right one becuase I was with family and friends, but most of all, I thought I got in the right car. (since in this dream, the car was what took me on my journey).

there was more to my dream, but as the day continued, i have forgotten it. i will take this dream in concideration, and start putting my faith in God. i think it will be hard at first, but it's something I'm looking forward to.


single adventures at tom thumb

so, i was there standing outside the pizza in the freezer section of my local Tom Thumb. foot tapping, biting the side of my lip, starting to panic. what is going on with me, am i not to choose a pizza that i would like to enjoy myself!!?? before i always knew which one to pick... it was the one he liked. surpreme and thick crust. it was never my favorite. no, my favorite is extra thin crispy crust with pepporoni. plain, i know, but uber delish, especially with ranch dressing.
so,if i know this is what i like, why am i not reaching out to get it. is it that i want to try something new? or missing what i'm use to eating. after i picked out pizza, it's true, i put it back, and did another lap around the store before coming back and making a final decision on the exact pizza i wanted. success for one item of the 20 that i did buy. why was it so hard to get the other iteams? because there are no single serving milk cartons, no one day oreo pack, no bread packs for 5 sandwiches only. the grocery store is meant for an average family of two plus baby. costco and sams is meant for that plus two more kids and grandparents visiting. so, for this particular establishment these packages will last the average family a week; when for me, more like 3 months! not that i don't eat at home, but i can't get the courage to make single serving portions.
At the end of my trip my total came out to be $22.93 included bananas, cereal, pizza, lasagna, and chips. hum... i should have gotten some chocolate and ice cream, but i'll leave that for a day that i'm in need of an emergency pick me up.


Monday, December 20, 2010

having fun...

not yet, but i think i'm getting close. my friends have been inviting me to many outings to keep me occupied. but i somehow still end up in his bed. how do i keep my distance when i still have passion of that one? going to high-end clubs, bars, kerioke, maverik basket ball game, and christmas parties are all fun, but where's the love? and what does love have to do with anything? a newly single friend, Wendy, told me "the one thing i miss most about a relationship, is kissing. to have that one person kiss you, when you need it most. and it's fun. just to kiss when you get home, or when you leave, or becuase you miss them. the kiss is the biggest thing i miss" i totally agree Wendy.
on another note, i have been having fun getting ready for the holiday. i can't believe my christmas tree was up and ready, and then down and out. i don't think i'll be having a real christmas tree again... i take that back. i will try again next year. this weekend i'm going to be visiting my parents. i want to go "all out" this year for my gifts for the family, but i don't have the means. instead i will make things from scratch and they will love it. as for work, since i have to work this entire week, i will bake some muffins for friday breakfast. and i think they will enjoy. as for my gift to myself, this year i bought two things, a cutting board, and red soup bowls. they were much needed.


Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Friday, November 12, 2010

the pain has turned to anger.

why should i settle for less than i want. I want to be your one an only, but you now have many. is it really that easy for you to give your love away so quickly? and your reasoning is becuase you need attention and need the feeling of being needed?!!?!? you had that. granted, i took that away, but your stubborness will not work to take it back!? i have been replaced with bars, beer and babes. is this the devil's work?

goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend. may your many nights out at the fancy place with lights light up your life, as you once did mine.

good luck with your game.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

not my day

I'm not feeling social today, but want some attention.... got any you can give me?


Tuesday, November 9, 2010

it's the end of an era.

I was watching sex and the city season 4 last night, and this is what Carrie said regarding Big moving to Napa and not wanting to be in NY anymore. What's coming? what's going? How will life be without you? I have always counted on you, and you would pop up unexpectatly. My go-to guy is no longer my go-to guy. Now I'll have to find another. But truthfully, I won't. Because there is only one you... luckly, you are only a plane ride away.

In regards to my latest relationship: one word -break up... and it's not going so well. Am I allowed to pretend I am talking to him, or will talk to him just to keep me moving thru the day? What about thinking "I'm going to make this for dinner, b/c I know that he would love it" even though it's just me eating... Alone? I have my makeup the way I know he likes it, just incase we accidently bump into eachother. Constantly checking my phone thinking that he MIGHT be thinking about me. Don't get me wrong, I'm not searching for trouble, but my heart is stuck in a spot that use to feel so good, and now is empty. I try to fill this void by talking to my best friends. Thinking of ideas on what I can do to occupy my time. How I should live my single life in order to be more confident in myself, without having to seak out male companionship.
When will these thoughts go away. When will my mind be clear and concentrate on me and my decisions? Only time will tell... untill then let my savor be sappy love movies, besties, and chocolate (but not too much, I still have to lose 5 more pounds).


Thursday, August 19, 2010

I feel pretty... I fell pretty... I fall pretty

don't you ever just feel soo good? your tummy if full of butterflies, you are floating on cloud nine, nothing can stop you. you see and feel the world around you. and the world around you wants to be closer to you... wants to join you. people gravitates to the positivity that clings on you. this is how i feel right now.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

The goal to lose seven pounds continues...

Here we are about 3 weeks since my last blog post about losing seven pounds.
Weight - 115lbs (same)
Inches - 33 inch waist (same)
No progress. My conclusion thus far would be the Acai Cleanser didn't do what it promised to. It promised no bloating and I would lose a minimum of 5 lbs by taking out all toxins out of my system. Since that didn't work, this week, I have decided to do a whole new regimen... Pretty much workout (cardio) one hour a day before work, and one hour after work by taking a class. Taking vitamin D pills during lunch and drinking 5 bottles of water minimum. By lunch time, I'm on my third bottle (Dasani water bottles are about 20 fl oz each). Oatmeal or Kellogg's cereal with milk for breakfast, a light lunch of Peanut butter sandwich or Veggies from the cafe, and for dinner I get to eat whatever healthy food I would like. By cutting out fast foods, and soda's I'm lowering my calorie intake and feeling more energized. I'm also trying to drink one cup of Green Tea a day for the antioxidants. Plus, Green Tea always makes me feel clean and refreshed from the inside out.
I'm going to weigh myself only one time a week. And not concentrate on losing weight, but feeling better about myself. I have started some new projects like making a dress from Nicko's Shirt and choreographing dances for the Cheerleaders. I'll keep you updated with my Seven Pounds.


Monday, July 5, 2010

Because he said it...

My favorite things you have said to me this past week:
"I think our relationship is the ideal relationship, people should have relationships like we do."
"If people were like us, the world would be a better place."
I totally agree. Through some ups and downs, we have figured out how each works at this moment. Everyday our relationship grows and a silent understanding on what eachother needs start to come to us naturally. I love the way you love me, and I do my best to love you the way I think you want to be loved. With you in mind, I try everyday to be the best me, I can be. Everytime I look into your eyes I get lost in your love. I know that together we will be able to accomplish all of our dreams. I love you, lover.

"The best thing to hold onto in life is each other" Audrey Hepburn

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Not in the mood...

I love this blog - but it's hard to keep up... especially since I'm having so much fun in the real world. So, I'm not really in the mood to write anything to special today. Hum... let's talk about time, and how fast it's going. Naw.
I'm going to go outside and play in the rain....


Song of the week: Samantha James - Rise

Thursday, June 10, 2010

to lose 7 pounds

So, it seems that summer is appoaching and I have some spring cleaning to do before it gets here, and by spring cleaning, I mean, make-under my life. This means, get rid of items I no longer use, clothes, magazines, old food in the fridge and unwanted fat around my waist!!! YES, I already started clearing out the closet, and well, organizing the magazines. But the hardest part is getting back to my summer body. This winter was a long one.. Gained 7 pounds in 8 months, and I'm not happy about it. So far this week, I have cut off all soda's, and coffee. Replaced it with Water and Green Tea. No more sweets for me, I have substituted oranges when I need a sweet peak. I'm only on my third day of this great reinvention and my body is already starting to feel so much better. I'm working out at LA Fitness (where i have my gym membership) everynight after work. I take the class and then afterwards run/speed walk on the treadmill for 2 miles. Then eat a light dinner and go home to prepare for the next day. I hope this helps me get to my goal ASAP, mainly because I have a wedding to go to on Friday, and I'm a brides maid at my best friends wedding next Saturday. Why did I wait so long do you ask? Because, you don't notice that your pants aren't fitting untill you start to see muffin-top.. and I have more than a muffin-top, I'm at michelin tires! LOL I'm just kidding, but that's what I feel like, I need to have a six pack, not a beer belly.

So, I'll keep you updated.


Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Adventurous Weekend...

Road trips are mini vacations that actually take you away from home, even if just for a day.
This last Saturday, Nicko and I woke up very early (8:00AM!!!) to take Creasy on a mini adventure... yup, we went to the doggie park in White Rock, right by the White Rock Lake. Creasy's face lite up when we told him he could get in the car with us to go get breakfast. Yummy Chick-fil-A was on the menu for us. When we arrived to our destination, Creasy was very curious, he was sniffing everything out. Nicko talked to a person with a Kayak about the intriguing things about kayaking. The man went in the water, and then to our surprise, there went in Creasy!!! It was truly the highlight of the morning. After dropping Creasy off at home, Nicko and I went to Lot, Texas. It's about 30 mins Southeast of Waco. We were in search of Nicko's dream truck, VW Rabbit Truck 1980 something. Well needless to say, we didn't find what we were looking for... but, we did get to see the outside of the Dr. Pepper Museum! Did you know that Dr. Pepper was originated in Waco, Texas? I'm guessing this is why Texans are addicted to the 23 flavors of Dr. Pepper. I know that my family is a huge Dr. Pepper fan. After visiting the museum, we went to a Mexican restaurant called Ninfa's where we tried some fajitas, and fried ice cream! YUMMY! After this long journey we decided to drive back home. I read to Nicko in the car so that way he wouldn't fall asleep.
On Sunday Morning, I had a cheer leading event in Irving. It was so much fun waking up early to get ready for my cheerleaders to play flag football. I'm not a sporty kind of person, but running in the hot 100 degree weather with 20 of my favorite girls and boys it was worth it. My Yo Bro was there too, being the paparazzi! After a long morning playing in the sun, Jess and I went to all our favorite Dollar Stores to look for great buys to give as gifts to the Cheerleaders for Cheer Camp. Success! We found all we needed, jewelry, makeup bags, glitter and frames.
When I got home, Nicko and I were starving, so off to run errands at Target and to try out a new restaurant in Cedar Hill - well, it's not new, but new for me because I have never been there. After dinner the sun was still shinning so we decided to head to Duncanville to visit Nicko's Family and enjoy their swimming pool!!! We were there till the sun went down, it was very relaxing. When we finally got home, we decided to end the weekend with a movie, and watched a really good one called The Blind Side. I recommend it to everyone.
It was a perfect weekend for us. I hope your was just as good.


Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Creasy Inspired

There is someone I need to tell you about - I'm madly in love with him...
His name is Creasy - He's a three year old French Bulldog. As you know, I'm a kitty person, but this cute doggie has opened up my heart. He has such a cute personality... I seriously can't help walking him, holding him, playing with him, talking to him, and all the things a normal person would do when they have a doggie. Of course, he is not mine, but I still love him so. As I was checking out some blogs on the web today, I saw some great artwork of French bulldogs, and it reminded me of the good times I have with Creasy. Here we are together visiting Melinda at LSU.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

1. When do you feel happiest?

When I'm in bed all day when it's raining, and I have no obligations at all. Or when I'm reading a book on my lunch break and the weather has a perfect breeze that makes the time go by slowly. I also love receiving mail.

2. How do you take care of yourself?

I don't drink that often or smoke. I dance twice a week, and work out twice a week and drink tons of water every work day.

3. Are you internally (by yourself) or externally (by others) motivated?

Definatly Externally - most of the time if I don't have a partner with me, or keeping me on schedule, I will get lazy.

4. What do you do for fun?

Hang out with my gorgous boyfriend, Bake or cook dinner and desserts, Road trips, and creating things.

5. What intimidates you?

I am not usually intimidated, but I don't like one on one's with my managers.

6. What is something you're proud of?

Making decisions on my own in regards to my life and being the best me, I can be.

7. Finish this sentence. I never _____________ .

I never make drama for entertainment purposes only.

8. Favorite vacation spot.

My mom's house.

9. Today is a (rate from 1 - 10).

Wow. Today was a 10! I had a wonderful morning, and a good day at work, and tonight I'm going to the fabric store.

10. Finish this sentence. If you knew me really well you'd know _____________.

If you knew me really well you'd know that I love being center of attention.


Friday, March 5, 2010

Dedicated.. to the one I love.

Tomorrow is my Nicko's Birthday! He's turning the big 26. I am throwing a Grand Birthday Event! So, today, I'm going to share with you the receipe of one of his favorite drinks. I say new becuase before me, he didn't order this all the time. But now he likes it... as do I!

3 oz gin
5 oz tonic water
1 lime wedge
Glass full of water ice, or tonic water ice

Pour the gin and the tonic water into a highball glass almost filled with ice cubes. Stir well. Garnish with the lime wedge.

OK, now you are thinking... If you don't have a shotglass with oz on it, you can fill up the glass with ice, start pouring your tonic water and start counting... count 1 2 then on 3 you use your other hand to start pouring the gin. When you get to 5 you stop pouring both. You should be to the rim of the glass by the time you get to 5. Make sure you have an even and steady pour of both liquids. Most people like to garnish the drink with the lime wedge, but I actully squeeze two lime's in, rather than one.

Gin's to think about:

There you go! Our favorite drink! Hope you enjoy, and have a safe weekend.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Because It's True...

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? ... See MoreActually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” ---Marriane Williamson

Monday, February 22, 2010

Yes, Please...

Raquel Reed's apartment... so fun and colorful! Not to mention, her hair and makeup.. 2 cute!Because I'm a Princess... and this is my Fairy Godmother... beautiful dress and crown.

I adore the following:
Black and White Pictures of couples kissing
Audrey Hepurn
and Rain

Madonna and Dolce and Gabbana


Friday, February 19, 2010

Jeremy Scott - Fashion Icon of the week

I love how ideas start in your head, and you get inspired, and suddenly they are right before your eyes. Different people are inspired by different things, Jeremy Scott, for example has a very huge imagination. His collections have been inspired by simple things like food, to mickey mouse, and street signs, and trash. The models with his clothing make the runways tremble with the most outragious clothing. Here is the latest that he has done... reminds me of 60's Barbie turned 2010 fashion Icon. Enjoy.

Monday, February 15, 2010

i heart you day!

There you were driving towards the direction I was coming from. I had noticed you at the same moment that I was thinking about you... was this my imagination playing tricks on me? No, it wasn't. I yelled out "THAT'S NICK!" and my step dad turned the car around without second thinking it. I called you on my phone.... you answer with your sweet voice and I softly say "Do you love me?" You reply without hesitation "More than you know." But I do know, because there you were, I asked you where you were, and you wanted to know why I asked. "Becuase I saw you!" I say with a big smile in my face and tone of voice. We meet at the Starbucks, you, my prince were there with a sparkling smile, ready to greet me, and my parents.

Thank you baby for the awesome Valentines Day Gifts and adventure!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Loving the Pearls...

Lady Gaga's starting off fashion week with pearls... on her face. I love this. Next year, I'm going to wear diamonds, just to one up her. Either way, she must have cold blood in her veins in order to wear nothing but underwear and a jacket with a hat in the middle of snowy, Feburary New York!

On another note, a fashion great... Alexander McQueen has passed (suicide at 40 years old). My favorite peice from his latest collection. Which by the way, Lady Gaga wore in her Bad Romance music video... I heart these so much.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Jennifer Aniston -

Happy Birthday, Jennifer! So, tomorrow is JA's b-day, she'll be 41 years old. Let's celebrate by Gawing at her gorgeous remodeled home. Nicko and I just picked up the latest Architecutural Digest because she was on the cover. I've been following Jennifer and the remodel of her LA home for years now... yes, she has made sure of every little peice of this baby was just right! lol. Here are some photo's of inspiration... Thanks Jen!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

No introductions...

I hate introductions... the expeirence is mostly jaded. You act this way, but then when we get to know eachother, we'll act another way. Why is it that we as people do that? Well I feel it's because people feel safe enough to really show our true colors, the trust is built, and the wall is thick enough to not break down (most of the time).

So, because I don't like introductions to much, I'm going to make it seem that you have known this blog, and me of course, for awhile. Let's just say, we are friends.

I am your friend, Melissa.

I am not a writer by all means. You will see many lower case "i", misspelled words, sentinces that run-on forever, and some that just don't make since. I will not apologize for my mistakes for the sole reason that I am perfect. Live with it. I do not ask for you to apologize. OK< lets have some fun!