Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Pandora for inspiration

Every time I play this pandora station, magic happens. The air shifts, and the universe sends me a big beautiful sign. My brain switches gears... I start to focus, and life becomes clear.

Any Other Name Radio

American Beauty (Film Score), Charleston Chasers, The Shawshank Redemption (Film Score)

 Check it out while you are working and need some calming background music, or if you are wanting to just sit and meditate. Sometimes I put it on for my doggie Chanel when I'm out. She is usually very calm and pleasant when I get back home. 

Monday, March 16, 2015

Research for my new book

At the Barnes and Nobel in Austin...
Sometimes I feel like the book sleeve is all I need to read and I felt like I've read the whole book. I can't wait to tell others about David duchovny book "holy cow". Very interesting.

Sunday, June 3, 2012


I have been having the time of my life "dismantling" since Sept 2009... ummmmmmm... okay, I'll say it, since my divorce. *sigh* Even though it was a good thing for me to depart from my marriage (that I never mention due to embarrassement that my fairytale life has such an ugly scar), a part of me really loved being a wife. It was the need to serve that I think I enjoyed the most. And I now know who/what I need to serve in order to be a more truthful, honest woman.
It was time for relection. When I got back to Texas, first thing I did was call my best friends. A team of personal heros that have been in my life for the past 9 years (or longer). Each of them saving me with either their compassion, love, friendship, advice, even shelter or whatever it is that I needed. Having those people in my life is what made me who I am due to the adventures we went through. I had stopped communicating with them for years due to my exhusbands jealousy and insecurities. It was time for me to team up with them again and start self refecting. I am grateful that my lifesavors came back into my life. And even with their help there was a lot more breaking down that needed to occur.
Then one year ago I started thinking about the things I needed to do. Then wondered why am I not doing it? Why am I not with my Prince Charming, why am I not owning my own company and thriving to be the best me that I can be? So I decided to get my mind set and start getting closer to my goals. It started with Quiting my office job, and Going to yoga teacher training, then Moving to Austin, Opening my own yoga studio, add Traveling in there, and now I'm thinking about moving back to Dallas. It's been what I would like to call a rollercoaster of love, sweat and hard work. Self discovery is happening, and I'm in love with it.
A blog I've started reading is by Rich Roll, and this is a excerpt from his wife's entry. It paints a really good picture of what I feel has been happening the last couple of months. No need to worry about me, friend. I'm just practicing patience, and polishing up for the things that God has in store for me.

“Dismantled” is a state where everything you thought you were starts to fall away. All of a sudden nothing seems to stick. You are doing everything you always had done in the past, and nothing works anymore. All your appliances and electronics start breaking. If a cop is in your vicinity, he is pulling you over. There are car accidents and bike crashes and literally your ivory tower is falling all around you. This can be a process that takes years. In our case, it’s been three years of this level of intensity — so far. Not to say that it is always at a fever pitch — it does ebb and flow like the tide. I liken it to being in the surf. You get hit by a wave; and just when you’re standing up and brushing yourself off, you get hit again and then again and again. This is part of the cleansing, the polishing of the diamond in the rough so to speak. You are being made “REAL”. The gift is that if you make it through, you become FREE. But it is not for the weary as it is very painful and uncomfortable.
During this process, your friends and family think you are crazy, lazy or on drugs. They stay up at night fearful of what is happening to you. You are scaring them and threatening their reality and they want you to stop and go back to the way you were. The new age spiritual community thinks you are creating it, and conveniently label it as “bad” and believing that if you just say “ I think I can, I think I can, I think I can” a million times over, it will all just go away. This is not the case. TRUE, you did create it at a soul level. Your ego would have never agreed to it’s death. This is your sacred wake up process to the truth of your BEING. In TRUTH, nothing is WRONG. Everything is going EXACTLY AS PLANNED. It just hurts like hell. The Ivory Tower has to fall in order for you to be reborn. You cannot be transformed unless you walk through the fire. And you can’t read about it in a book. Or be told about it by some teacher. You must BECOME. You must burn in the fire to be born anew. This is the path of waking up.
- Julie Piatt from blog http://www.richroll.com/uncategorized/my-man/

Thursday, July 28, 2011


i wish i could do something like this with someone i love.

on tuesday my cousin, priscilla came into town. i took her to a lot of my favorite places in dallas. we ran some of my arrands, and she didn't mind. after picking her up at lovefield airport we went to mini cooper of dallas. got some free coffee. hehehe. drove to jimmy johns for a quick lunch and great talk about what's been going on in our lives. priscilla has created a promotions company called lyrical, inc. which is a perfect name for it, as she makes events that bring artists of all kind to a venue and let them express themselves. most of her venues are in local galleries or coffee shops. she has two a month. i don't know how she does it, but it's working, and she's getting a lot of attention.
After lunch i made a huge loop to uptown to get downtown. Once in downtown we walked around. one of our favorite shop stop was the cactus place. (i don't remember the name, but it's on the corner by campisis, and next to main and akard.) this place is exactly decorated like i would like my future shop to be.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

heart skipped a beat.

Someone once said - "There comes a time in your life, when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad, and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right, pray for the ones who don't. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is a part of life, getting back up is living."

um. my throat hurts. but i'm going to ignore it till it goes away. hopefully that works, because NO WAY am i gonna get sick. too much to do. so little time.


Tuesday, July 12, 2011


Today is my first day with the lemonade cleanse. So far so good...except that I think I put WAY to much Cayenne pepper. I'll be sure to use less tomorrow. The drink taste like waterdown lemonade with spicyness to it. I dont' have a headache, but my head feels like it's clean. Maybe that's what pepper usually does to people, I'm not sure, as I dont' usually have spicy things. But when I do think of spicy things I think of Chuys. yummmmmmmm... now I want some. Maybe I'll start my cleanse tomorrow? I'm just kidding.
i think i can... i think i can... i think i can ... i think i cannn......

<3 me.

Monday, July 4, 2011

fourth of july

when i was married, my husband didn't want to go watch the fireworks on the beach of california. he said that the crowd would be to much, and he just rather watch from our window. i was sad, but said that we'll just stay at home together. an hour later he told me he was going to meet his friend and hang out with him since he was going thru a break up, and his friend didn't want to be alone. i got up to start getting ready, when he asked me where i was going. i was getting up to get ready to go out with them. but my mistake, it was just him informing me that he will be leaving without me. zac went into the shower, and i turned on the tv. his phone ringing (his friend calling), i let it ring. then saw his last text message saying something like "i can't wait". then, i started snooping as the name on that text was not the name of his friend he informed me that he would be spending time with. i continued to read that his friend was actually planning to pick up chicks at the beach and my husband replied with the same. my heart started to break. i was upset and continued to think what i did wrong for him not to spend time with me.

he walked out the door so happy, relieved, excited. as giddy as a school girl, i swear, i was doing my best to keep my tears inside. i followed him to the front door. i looked at him, and shook my head. i asked him why he didn't want to spend this time with me. his reply "i don't know".

going to see the fireworks, makes me happy. and i shouldn't have let him take that away from me. i let him take a lot of things. even my happieness (which everyone thinks i have an endless amount of).

i love me.