the pain has turned to anger.

why should i settle for less than i want. I want to be your one an only, but you now have many. is it really that easy for you to give your love away so quickly? and your reasoning is becuase you need attention and need the feeling of being needed?!!?!? you had that. granted, i took that away, but your stubborness will not work to take it back!? i have been replaced with bars, beer and babes. is this the devil's work?

goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend. may your many nights out at the fancy place with lights light up your life, as you once did mine.

good luck with your game.

not my day

I'm not feeling social today, but want some attention.... got any you can give me?

thanks!
love,
me

it's the end of an era.

I was watching sex and the city season 4 last night, and this is what Carrie said regarding Big moving to Napa and not wanting to be in NY anymore. What's coming? what's going? How will life be without you? I have always counted on you, and you would pop up unexpectatly. My go-to guy is no longer my go-to guy. Now I'll have to find another. But truthfully, I won't. Because there is only one you... luckly, you are only a plane ride away.

In regards to my latest relationship: one word -break up... and it's not going so well. Am I allowed to pretend I am talking to him, or will talk to him just to keep me moving thru the day? What about thinking "I'm going to make this for dinner, b/c I know that he would love it" even though it's just me eating... Alone? I have my makeup the way I know he likes it, just incase we accidently bump into eachother. Constantly checking my phone thinking that he MIGHT be thinking about me. Don't get me wrong, I'm not searching for trouble, but my heart is stuck in a spot that use to feel so good, and now is empty. I try to fill this void by talking to my best friends. Thinking of ideas on what I can do to occupy my time. How I should live my single life in order to be more confident in myself, without having to seak out male companionship.
When will these thoughts go away. When will my mind be clear and concentrate on me and my decisions? Only time will tell... untill then let my savor be sappy love movies, besties, and chocolate (but not too much, I still have to lose 5 more pounds).

love,
me

I feel pretty... I fell pretty... I fall pretty

don't you ever just feel soo good? your tummy if full of butterflies, you are floating on cloud nine, nothing can stop you. you see and feel the world around you. and the world around you wants to be closer to you... wants to join you. people gravitates to the positivity that clings on you. this is how i feel right now.

Green... love it.

love,
lala

The goal to lose seven pounds continues...

Here we are about 3 weeks since my last blog post about losing seven pounds.
Weight - 115lbs (same)
Inches - 33 inch waist (same)
No progress. My conclusion thus far would be the Acai Cleanser didn't do what it promised to. It promised no bloating and I would lose a minimum of 5 lbs by taking out all toxins out of my system. Since that didn't work, this week, I have decided to do a whole new regimen... Pretty much workout (cardio) one hour a day before work, and one hour after work by taking a class. Taking vitamin D pills during lunch and drinking 5 bottles of water minimum. By lunch time, I'm on my third bottle (Dasani water bottles are about 20 fl oz each). Oatmeal or Kellogg's cereal with milk for breakfast, a light lunch of Peanut butter sandwich or Veggies from the cafe, and for dinner I get to eat whatever healthy food I would like. By cutting out fast foods, and soda's I'm lowering my calorie intake and feeling more energized. I'm also trying to drink one cup of Green Tea a day for the antioxidants. Plus, Green Tea always makes me feel clean and refreshed from the inside out.
I'm going to weigh myself only one time a week. And not concentrate on losing weight, but feeling better about myself. I have started some new projects like making a dress from Nicko's Shirt and choreographing dances for the Cheerleaders. I'll keep you updated with my Seven Pounds.

Love,
Lala

Because he said it...

My favorite things you have said to me this past week:

"I think our relationship is the ideal relationship, people should have relationships like we do."
"If people were like us, the world would be a better place."

I totally agree. Through some ups and downs, we have figured out how each works at this moment. Everyday our relationship grows and a silent understanding on what eachother needs start to come to us naturally. I love the way you love me, and I do my best to love you the way I think you want to be loved. With you in mind, I try everyday to be the best me, I can be. Everytime I look into your eyes I get lost in your love. I know that together we will be able to accomplish all of our dreams. I love you, lover.

"The best thing to hold onto in life is each other" Audrey Hepburn

Love,

Lala