life book...

feeling myself and being myself is the most important thing to me. it makes me happy. it makes me bubbly and content.
right now i'm in the process of getting things ready to move to austin. i need to do something that'll make me some money that way i can do the following:
pay back martin for car - most important!!! $1300
pay for deposit for sunstone yoga school $3000
pay for apartment and bills
save for two months to live in austin during "transfer" time

what i can do in the meantime is get myself mentally and physically prepared.
working out, eating right, reading, getting some sun, spending time with friends, making austin contacts for further career.

side jobs:
Nick's Cellardoor
The Accent Pillows

What else can i do to make $$? set up a carwash for myself? LOL

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my 12 areas of my life that i will improve on (Taken by lifebook):
◦My Health and Fitness - A HEALTHIER BODY, A HEALTHIER LIFE
◦My Intellectual Life - MY LIFE IS WHAT MY THOUGTS MAKE IT
◦My Emotional Life - LIFE IS AFFECTED BY MY EMOTIONS, I NEED TO CONTROL IT
◦My Character - VALUES
◦My Spiritual Life - DISCOVERING A HIGHER PURPOSE.. GOD
◦My Love Relationship - TO LOVE, AND BE LOVED
◦Parenting (for when I do have kids) - LEAD BY EXAMPLE
◦My Social Life - KEEP GOOD COMPANY
◦My Financial Life - THE TRANSFORMATIVE POWER OF MONEY
◦My Career - YOU ARE WHAT YOU DO
◦My Quality of Life - THE LIFE I ASPIRE TO LIVE
◦My Life Vision - TO FINALLY EXPERIENCE IT BY ALL MY SENSES

and i've started on this... RIGHT NOW <3

love,
me

so many beautiful things

i wish i could tell you that i too don't know what i want. i just feel the pressure of time. if i don't have my baby now, i might never. then i think.. who cares. i can be selfish and not have a baby, and live my life freely and travel the world and not be tied down. no matter where i go, my family will be there to support me. they don't feel the need to have a baby in the family. maybe i can just get up and go. when my apartment lease is up... i can storage my things, and finally go to austraillia... or move to austin w/ brenna... or go downtown... or live in a motel... i can work remote/online.. i can work on a train on my way to washington state. the possibilites are endless. and no one to tie me down. i can continue all around the world to my hearts content.

or i can stay here at microsoft and type my possiblities while i have gentleman suiters claim they want to take me away. all talk and no play. smh.

i'm listening to my song that makes me dream.. and now i'm dreaming. the thing is... ALL MY DREAMS COME TRUE.


yep. i'm gonna do it.

I'm going to do what I want. NOW.

love,
lyssa

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HfH9i-C9ico&feature=related

What stage are you at?

Watch this whole video... click here

just work on it. and it'll work.

love,
me

birthday time... already!?!?

yaya, i can't believe it's my birthday coming up already!!! i'm such a busy bee, i didn't even see it was coming untill today while i was looking at my calendar. i was thinking "oh, finally a weekend coming up that i'm not busy" but then i was like "OMG, THAT'S MY BIRTHDAY WEEKEND!!!" so, yea, busy again... i'm going to throw a poolside party at my apt. I think it'll be fun, and i'll get James and Jessica to cook some fiesta food :) and i'll look hott in my bikini.. or pale white and fat. either way, it's my bday, and i do what i want...hum, now to think what swim suit to wear!!!

mucho love,
me

p.s. i have recently unblocked my ex on the phone... should i let us be friends? enough time has passed!? what do you think?

About her

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there. " -Bob Marley

ben gibson

sweet
tasty
witty
social
listens
talks
pays
respects
fun
vocabulary
freckles
strong
sings
dances
beard
kisses
plays
tall
foreplay
touches
smart
drinks
talented
photographer
hands
perfect

love,
me

comfort never got anyone anywhere

“I think we're just gonna to have to be secretly in love with each other and leave it at that, Ritchie.” The Royal Tenenbaums

when your comfortable you sit. you stare, you watch, you wait. for what?

i needed a "wake me up" something to take the edge off... it was you. i missed you, why not?! it was great to see you, by the way. i haven't had a converstation like that in a long time. i hope i didn't shake your world to much. but put a smile ON your face. you are not alone.

love,
me